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Et Putredo in Acedia

by Sweet Disaster Soundtrack

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Daniel Butler Awesome pop punk with hardcore punk influence! Favorite track: Hit A Deer.
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1.
Stale beer, bad breath, yellow lights motherfuckin' up my rest Thin blood, hot mess puking guts right out of my chest I've got the shakes, I've got the fucking nerve I'm spewing slurry bullshit, it's looking like I'll never learn Go home, get paid The girls are fuckin' lame, I wanna get laid Everybody's laughing at this stupid fucking joke Everybody's laughing even though they lost hope I'm cracking up while I'm stumblin' in line Because the punchline is "everybody dies" Take me to the city where the grass isn't green Take me to the city where the girls are fuckin' mean I don't even care, don't expect me try The pretty ones are laughing while pretending to cry If this is fucking paradise then I just wanna fucking die If this is fucking paradise then I just wanna fucking die If this is fucking paradise then I just wanna fucking die If this is fucking paradise then I just wanna fucking die I run my fucking mouth, but no-one's listening Pacing back and forth in the grass where I've been pissin' in Nothing's gonna change and we'll all just stay the same I'm getting sick of the people, they all look the fucking same Everybody's laughing at this stupid fucking joke Everybody's laughing even though they lost hope I'm cracking up while I'm stumblin' in line Because the punchline is "everybody dies" Take me to the city where the grass isn't green Take me to the city where the girls are fuckin' mean I don't even care, don't expect me try The pretty ones are laughing while pretending to cry Take me to the river full of poison, Take me to a new place to decay Take me to the tracks, underneath the stars As the wind's tuneless song begins to play So take me to the river full of poison, the sky's falling on me here tonight These eyes of mine are feeling jaded So let's ride that fucker home!
2.
There is no place that feels like home In an airport or sleeping on a stranger's floor Just a staggered line of vision as I wake to the sound Of the trains racing by And I can see the dark circles growing 'round my eyes I feel the lines getting bigger 'round my shit-eating smile They say I need to go to church but I'll just say to myself "Everything in moderation but moderation itself" My head's full of regret, my lungs are filled with anguish I don't think high or myself, and I don't think when I'm high Another restless night spent on this couch in the living room Spent tossing and turning, wanting to drink so that my stomach stops burning Can you lie, can you lie, can you lie, can you lie? The curtains are dropping, it's about fucking time And I'm dying to live and I'm living a lie I'll let the ship sink just to drink 'til I die I'm fading You're wasting your life on me The skeletons in your closet are welcoming me With open arms
3.
Chemtrails 02:46
I left a chem-trail to the adolescent cave Will it find me back in here in to my brain? Will it make me feel old to be insane? 'Cause I won't let my past induce my shame Everyday now it's clear to me That the ugly days are history I dream of yesterday as I sleep for tomorrow It reminds me of my childhood sorrow And I don't want to go back to Freehold Drive Cause I'll get the chills right down my spine I was a young boy who didn't play with toys Instead I'd scream and shout 'til I lost my voice And no-one understood a thing I said I had my own little world in my clueless head As I grew older I didn't fit in I was always giving up and always quitting I couldn't find love but I never did drugs I was a lost soul with my pot of bad luck And now I know what true love is And I also know what heartbreak is I hate having feelings for all the others When the feelings aren't the same for one another This is a stage of my life Between caterpillar, butterfly Between self-control and selflessness In my cold crooked twist This is a stage of my life Between inside and outside It's not just run or hide, it's fight or flight It's death or lonely life This is a stage of my life Between caterpillar, butterfly Between self-control and selflessness In my cold crooked twist This is a stage of my life Between inside and outside It's not just run or hide, it's fight or flight It's death or lonely life
4.
5, 6, 7, 8! My eyes are burning; I think something I caught up in them Spending nights on my bedside, tossing and turning And these days are getting warmer, but all I feel is cold And when the summers disappear the winter's all I've ever known (I know, I know, I know, I know I know it's bad for me Under all of the snow and ice, The cities look the same to me I know, I know, I know, I know I'm a goddamn tragedy Under all of the snow and ice This city looks the same to me) My stomach burns until it turns One of these days I'll never learn Fuck you but thanks for the concern For this, I'm running out of words I'll smoke and drink and fuck all night I can't stand turning on the lights Even if I tried I know I'll never give a fuck I'll spend my days down in this rut I stumble drunkenly, past the point of no return I'm rubbing dirt in to my eyes, flesh wounds opened up broken lies. I'm coughing up my lungs as the cigarette smoke rolls past my windowsill All I've got left is my time to kill
5.
The blood on your chrysanthemum corsage After all the hit's you've dodged The rips on your black and red dress It's time to confess Where you have you been? Running off with him? Are you hurting with him, like I'm hurting within? I'm sick of watching this punching bag exchange Darling I will make things change Sweet girl won't you run and hide? Or make this our night, 'cause I'm dying tonight? Backseat prom queen Come on home and dance with me Paranoid angel, sad annoyed stranger Come with me and get away from the danger now The past it swallows your trust and follows your doubt When there's no-one around With a gentle soul and a pinch of love Because a little's enough My heart will follow your trust and swallow your doubt As you breathe safe in my house The scars will show how brave and bold you truly are Darling I will heal your scars I wish we could disappear Your hands are shaking dear Your green eyes are full of fear No more pain, it won't be the same now that I am here Backseat prom queen Come on home and dance with me Paranoid angel, sad annoyed stranger Come with me and get away from the danger now Backseat prom queen Blood stained like Halloween Suicide princess, tired and restless Come with me and don't ever regress now You're safe with me now So safe and sound Backseat prom queen Come on home and dance with me Paranoid angel, sad annoyed stranger Come with me and get away from the danger now Backseat prom queen Blood stained like Halloween Suicide princess, tired and restless Come with me and don't ever regress now
6.
I saw myself hanging from the ceiling in the same room where I fell in love I heard the sirens of the world blaring high before I've drawn my blood The world was damned before I saw the flames of hell engulf my soul The carbon dioxide escaped my breath before the bullet in my pistol And I saw the four leaf clovers burn before we ran out of luck And I heard the messengers say long-story-short that we are fucked And this is where it ends And it's all ending tonight And this is how it goes It burns away like fireflies So this is how it ends Everyone is dying here tonight They're dying here tonight We've all been struck out in the 9th inning, now nature is winning And our final demise is approaching, as the smoke is in for the choking I saw the sun get closer, as we flew like a rollercoaster The sirens blared much louder, here and now in the final hour I miss everything and everyone in the blink of an eye I swear on everything and everyone I'm not ready to die And this is where it ends And it's all ending tonight And this is how it goes It burns away like fireflies So this is how it ends Everyone is dying here tonight They're dying here tonight We are the final generation And this is our realization So this is how it ends
7.
One night I felt like it was my fault I woke up with a scream that shook the walls It's been so long since you've called Your words still echo through the halls One morning I woke up, you weren't there I wanna know if you ever thought of me This house fell apart and I was scared I wish you knew how much I didn't want you to leave These words are cursed, every hour "I'll put us first", turned cold and sour We cried our tears, but you got louder You fought our fears until this ugly hour The door slammed the pictures fell on the floor You took something I will never get again Don't understand, I'm a child and nothing more I knew for sure I'd never see you again These words are cursed, every hour "I'll put us first", turned cold and sour We cried our tears, but you got louder You fought our fears until this ugly hour These words are cursed, every hour "I'll put us first", turned cold and sour We cried our tears, but you got louder You fought our fears until this ugly hour Maybe this goodbye is a new hello But all the love went out a one way window
8.
Hit A Deer 01:58
I hit a deer in the middle of the road The body laid there in the middle of the snow I felt the guilt coursing through my head I took a life and I'm filled with fucking dread The airbags came as the car fucking hit I'd rather drive my car right off a fucking cliff I'm a waste of brains, destroying everything Wasting your time, wasting fucking anything I need a savior for my nihilist behavior I'd rather live than die What am I doing, 'cause I'm fucking losing It's like I fell right out of the sky I'll cleanse my head with some black velvet I'll taint my soul with some deadly sins I'll erase the past and they'll know my name From this point on my actions are not restrained So fill my tank or the cups of booze I need a time and place to let myself loose Not pace the floor between there beige walls While I wait here for an unexpected call I need a savior for my nihilist behavior I'd rather live than die What am I doing, 'cause I'm fucking losing It's like I fell right out of the sky It's a cliché to say it gets better is a cliché All we wanna know is when and what way I need a savior for my nihilist behavior I'd rather live than die What am I doing, 'cause I'm fucking losing It's like I fell right out of the sky All we wanna know is when and what way All we wanna know is when and what way All we wanna know is when and what way All we wanna know is when and what way
9.
Shrouded in unsettling mystery These days belong in ancient history This interstate disappeared into the dead of night behind me Looking left and right, ain't nothing here to find Apprehensive about this pretense As I make this midnight drive Sing me softly to sleep with these sharp lullabies When I look to the city skyline I drift to sentiment at this presentiment This burning sensation I wish it'd go And I write to you from this tenement Where to go from here, hell I don't know The words that you wrote corroded While my heart inside my chest imploded I'm a pessimist full of regret And resentfulness I confess this petulance And I confess my own indolence I don't blame you for second guessing I don't blame you for second guessing I don't blame you for second guessing I don't blame you for second guessing me I drift to sentiment at this presentiment This burning sensation I wish it'd go And I write to you from this tenement Where to go from here, hell I don't know Leave me here, bury me in the snow
10.
12:55 AM 03:51
If I don't write this down, I'll forget it by morning light It's 12:55 and I've been thinking of you all night Dreaming of rustic buildings, walking along streets paved with stone I want it back, life's never seemed so monotone Wake up, wake up, my headlight's shining through your window My heart's hanging in limbo, coming through your radio Kiss me, kiss me, the hypochondriac To the summer as our soundtrack, but right now I'm seeing black I just can't believe how addictive you are And after all this time, the withdrawals never seem to end My lungs are burning, you breathe the smoke right out of me And god I miss those queen sized sheets Wake up, wake up, my headlight's shining through your window My heart's hanging in limbo, coming through your radio Kiss me, kiss me, the hypochondriac To the summer as our soundtrack, but right now I'm seeing black Wake up, wake up Wake up, wake up Wake up, wake up, my headlight's shining through your window My heart's hanging in limbo, coming through your radio Kiss me, kiss me, the hypochondriac To the summer as our soundtrack, but right now I'm seeing black Right now I'm seeing black Right now I'm seeing... Kiss me, kiss me, the hypochondriac To the summer as our soundtrack, but right now I'm seeing black
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about

Et Putredo in Acedia (Latin for Apathy & Decay [or is it?]). What a fitting fuckin' title for a debut, right? The first album from this new band, that started working on the record literally 3 weeks ago. I could literally fart out cliches like "it's the best work I've ever done", "it's better than anything else I've ever done", and anything of the sort. Instead, I'll let the music speak for itself. FUCK, even that's cliche at this point! Whatever. The music's good, by golly.

Fuck it, enjoy.
xoxoxxo, Beeze

A collection of dark songs from the darkest place in me and Benji's heads, composed in a way that will make you want to break shit and sing more than cry...you may cry too but, just don't do that. One Way Window and 12:55 may give you the feels right off the bat, but most of these songs really pack a huge, punky punch with just the right anthem style, nursery rhyme-ish choruses. My best work by far, because of Benji's energy.

Hope you enjoy it!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox, Dolan!

credits

released January 3, 2017

The Band:
Benji Marchbank: Bass, Drums, Lead Vocals, Backing Vocals, additional guitar on Waterboarding the Neighbors
Donald Beck: Guitars, Lead Vocals, Backing Vocals

Guests:
Kirkland Borgerson (of Lithium): Backing Vocals on Chemtrails

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Doing the thing est. 2016.

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